Is it worth it? That's the question I can't seem to get out of my head since my conversation with Meredith. Is it worth it? Is happiness with Mark, no matter how long or short that time period may be, worth the risk? Is it worth the pain that may come?

Maybe I'm supposed to take my own advice. Maybe I should give this a try, give us a chance. I won't know the outcome until I try, right?

But what if I don't come out of it? What happens when I can't handle the pain or the hurt? Do I just go on, say that I tried, and that's it?

I find my mind running in circles. I can't make up my mind. I can't sleep with everything going on in my head. It's worth it...I know it is. But am I strong enough to get through it?